AN OBEYING CHILD

I think I am blind and I am so dark in my heart and so adament in understanding others.Why I feel like this is that I never obeyed my Jesus completely.When I check all the personal messge that I got from HIM ,I understood that 95% of his demands I took lightly and didnt give importance .How ever I appreciate and waits for his promises to ful fills, but not abut the things HE wants me to do.
To day as I sat in adoration JESUS reminded me ,that besides a loving heart he needs an obeying heart from me.Yes I do love my God but I am lacking in obeying him in all the aspects.I turned all his demands in to my own way or my own desires.As an example HE told me that ''dont go to bed at late time rather go early.''BUt when I have some work and if when I am on line at night I dont care His message for me and I plan in my way.Here I am simply consider God is subordinate to me and also I think I can deal with GOD. My God I never give you respect as God.I did not think about your Mighty power and I forgot that you are God. I considered you only like one of servants or my colleague.
Today I decided that I WILL OBEY YOU completely,sl ord help me to obey you with out taking account on my plan and desires of life.please lord change me and bless me . your jeril amen

AN UNDERSATNDING DAY

Today I thank you lord for all your blessing.You showed me the greatness of understanding others and accepting others as they are and accept my self as I am .Lord some times I am failure,and some times I am so strong .But you are so strong all ways .Thank you for being with me. Thank you for guiding this day.I ask you pardon for all that i have done against you, oh Lord.
I WALK ,I FALL, I WALK AGAIN
KEEPING HAND IN YOUR HANDS
GAZING ,TURNING AND GAZING AT
YOUR WORLD ,MY WORLD AND YOUR'S AGAIN

I BREATH AND BLEW THE BREEZE OF THE EARTH
BUT CLOAKED BY THE BREATH OF YUR HEART
SO I LIVE IN THIS LIFE AS MUCH
I FAIL AND FALL AND STUMBLE.

U R JERIL AMEN

LIFE IN LIGHT

CAN ANY ONE BE LIKE YOU
CAN ANY ONE CHANGE YOUR WILL
LIGHT AND WAYS SPREADS FROM YOU
STREAMS OF LIFE STARTS FROM YOU

STILL I TRAMBLE ON MY WAY THAT
GARNISHED WITH BONES AND THORNS
THE DARK AND FREEZE CAVES OF OF MY HEART
YET STRUGGLE TO BREATH ,STREAMS OF LIFE

NOW I FEELTHE WARMTH OF YOUR BREATH
THE BREATH OF LIFE AND THE LIGHT
NOW I SEE MY WAY WITH YOUR DIVINE LIGHT
THERE I JOURNEY SMOOTHLY TO YOUR NATION

THE DUSTY FADING DREAMS DIMINISHED
BUT THE BETTER AND BRIGHTER DESTINY REACHED
THERE I PROCLAIM THE NAME OF MY LIFE
YES JESUS YOU ARE MY LIFE

THANK YOU

Lord today you helped me to show you loyalty.I succeeded in the temptation.When I was in the field of my inner war you strengthened me to chose your side. You reminded me the lives of our great saints.That gave me encouragement and I could stand in your side.When I chose your side to stand ,then you cloaked me with your mighty hands and saved me from the net of evil.
thank u.lord.for your protection,THANK YOU very much. u r jeril amen

AN INNER CRY

Jesus you are a wonderful healer.Lord last day I was with my aunt in the hospital and she was bitten by a poisonous snake.The poison spread in the blood ,that altered her tottal appearence.The active became the faint,the talkative became the silent,the fair became the bluish and besides that the alive can become the dead .Such kind of external elements like snake venom made transformed her to an another person.To bring her back to the previous or normal stage she has hospitalised.She has given antivenom and brought her back to the normal stage.
Jesus I know when I was bitten by the sin I really transformed to an another man. The tranquilant became restless,the quite one became so harsh,the understanding mind became so adament,the loyal mind became so deceitful mind,the loving heart became the hatred one.Lord I know the pain of flying away from you.When ever I was wrong I had been a deep wound in my inner heart,and the puss of unloyalty towards you was flowing from that wound, besides that the malodur of my sins did not allow my self to smell the fragrance of your holiness.Lord I was in the bondage of my emotions ,I was not rational in thinking more over that I was filled with bitter feelings and my sexuality blew off the light of my life.
Jesus you were very much kind to me and you were so compassionate towards me.Lord you washed me with your precious blood and heal the wound of my inner heart.You touched me with your pierced hands and wiped away the puss of my unloyalty with your tender fingers.Again you poured on me the sweet smelling holy spirit in order to make me free from the malodour of my sins.Jesus I know I canot follow you but only YOUR GRACE makes me to follow you,Even though now I am with you ,Lord I dont know whether tomorrow I will be with you or not.Jesus if you withdraw your hands from me ,I know the moment I will fall in the trap of the sin.Lord I am so helpless,so weak and so unloyal.But Lord I know one thing that even if I fall you never abandon me and I can come back you again because you are not my self ,because you are not man but you are the living God.Thank you lor for helping me .thank you lord for supporting me. LORD I LOVE YOU. U R JERIL .AMEN

CHANNELS OF LOVE

Today I am so happy because I received a phone call from one of my nun friends she lives in a very far place and she reminded me ,that today is my feast day .Feast of st .James.Actaully I never expected her call and I didnt know that today is my feast day.When I recieved her call I felt that Iam important for her life and some one is there to care me and my heart really filled with love and joy.I became so sweet as a choclate and so play full as a boy.
Then I spent my time in the kitchen to help my mother.I have been doing cooking and I really enjoy it.Since I experienced the warmth of caring from sr.sipsa, I was transformed in to more lovable. I was listening my mother and all the words, which I utter to her was so tender ones and so sweet.So she too became so happy and experienced a cord of love bcause of me.I did not do anything special and speak but I realised that I was transmitting the warmth of love and happiness which I filled with by the phone call.
This made me to think, that even a simple gusture of love of a person can produce energy, that is very higher than nuclear energy in other person and he defenitely transmit it in to others .This enormous amount of energy enable a person to do great things in the life ,and that will defenitely useful for the entire world.When we radiate the rays of love by simple gustures to our surroundings, there we really see the rise of the kingdom of God.Since God is love and all the tender feeling is from God, so the rays of love also from God and when we radiate the love, actually we radiate God and we are becoming the channel of God.
Yes Lord ,I never gave importance to express love,care and tender feelings to others and I did not radiate you.My eyes were hooked on only great deeds but never looked on simple and meaning full behaviour like giving appreciation,thanking others,expressing the hidden love ,showing care and concern and simply giving a smile and my own presence.Lord with an appreciation I can live two months. Lord if this world is lacking in the expression of tender feelings I am the reason because I am neglecting to spread your love by not expressing the gustures of love.
Jesus MAKE ME A HUMAN BEING RATHER THAN A MERE MAN. Give me a heart which is ready to radiate your love by freely expressing tender feelings towards others.Lord give me a heart of a child .Teach me to cry and,laugh.Teach me to really love others.LORD I LOVE YOU.I thank you.u r jeril amen

THE BROKEN POT

Last day was a day of consolation for me because I was disturbed with some kinds of feelings that reminded me spenting of time in internet and being with others most of the day would cause me to lose the touch with God and thus result in spiritual weakness.I went away from my own kingdom of contemplation and lonliness which all ways makes me a strong hearted man.I said to Jesus that I am losing the touch with him.The time I spend in prayer got reduced since I have to spent time for my lots of friends and their lives issues .At last I sat with Jesus in prayer and he reminded me one story.The story of the broken pot.
The story goes like this,once there was a poor farmer lived in his small hut.All the day he worked in the near by farm land and every evening he carried water from the near by stream for his personal use.He used two pots which he tied on the two ends of a stick and kept on his shoulder while he walk.In two of those pots one had a hole .By seeing this the good pot told to the broken one that you are a useless pot and our master is working hard to bring water to home but you are simply wasting his time and energy by losing water through the hole.The broken pot became so sad when it heard the accusations of good pot and he thought that '' Yes I am useless ,what the good one said is right, so I will tell to master to use another good pot to use instead of me.Then the next day master came to carry the pot to fetch the water ,the broken one said to the master to leave him the from the job.He said to master that he was a useless and not reaching up to his expectations when he failed to carry the amount of water as the good one carried.But in contrast to his grievence the master said to him that ,he knew that he is a broken pot and water is flowing out thorugh the hole.Again he asked the broken pot to look the sides of the road ,ther he saw beautiful flowers were blossomed and the road sides seemed like a garden.The master again said to the broken pot that even though you are a broken pot you are not a waste pot and because of you now I can enjoy my time in the home and the road.The water which flowed from you gave birth to this kind of heavenly flowers.Now every one who passed through the road praising me for these flowers and because of your weaknesses I am glorified.So dont be worried about your failers and weaknesses and I know everything rather you concentrate on your work and understand that your as worthy as others .
Jesus my master I know I am like the broken pot .I too worried about my failers and weaknesses but Lord you have told me that you understand me and I can see your strength in my weeknesses.Even though I am a broken pot,you all ways inspires me to stick on my jobs and mission.Jesus told me that being with people and others is the christ life .Spenting time for others is heavenly duty, so pray after your duty.Thankyou Lord for everything.Thank you my JESUS, .Bless me lord and be with me .Lord teach me to serave others in all possible ways so that I can understand you more. Jesus bless me and be with me .u r jeril .amen

MAKE ME A PRODIGAL

I have been thinking on the life of the prodigal son but my eyes hooked on the character of the elder son the loving father.Yes the prodigal one came back to father and united with him but in contrast the elder one was really went away from him.This situation cause a twist in my thought.
The angry elder spent his entire life with the father and had been doing all the assigned job .Besides that he enjoyd the splendour of his broad minded father.But when his father accepted his younger brother who spiled all his pssessions,he could not agree with his father.This event vividly explains about his real nature rather than mere disagreement with father.Eventhough he was with his father he never understood the mind of his father and he never realized who his father was.
Yes I too like this elder son many of a times I did not understand my God.Yes I was with God and I really wanted to work for God but the reality is that I never realise who is God.I passed judgement on others and was got angry with God but never understood the tender feelings of God.
Lord PLEASE GIVE ME A HEART OF THE PRODIGAL SON AND MAKE ME A PRODIGAL SON ,Lord why i say is that the prodigal son realized what is his father .So my God please HELP ME TO UNDERSTAND YOU .AMEN U R JERIL

A TIME OF INABILITY

Unfortunately again I am not in the reach of internet that make me unable to do my bloging.Yes of course its a kind of handicapedness in the sense of unabling express myideas through out the world.Any way I hope that with in two weeks I can up todate my blog .yes its nagging and borring. Any way I can do all things through Jesus christ who strenghten me. ok
love like an inborn
live like an experienced
think like socratese
and serve like a mother

A BIRTHDAY THOUGHT

Today is my birthday.Today I REALISE THAT jESUS REALLY CHANGED MY LIFE FROM PAST.Lord I thank you for everythink.I offer you what I have and i know that what I have is everything from you except all my sins . Lord really I dont have words to describe your deeds which you have done for my life but I thank you, I thank you my jesus'Jesus you are so wonder ,really you are so wonder .YOU are above all technologies.
In chemistry He turned water to wine.In He was born without normal conception.In physics He disprove the law of gravity when He ascended in to heaven.In economics He multiplied and fed 5000.In history He is the beginning and the end.HE IS JESUS CHRIST THE ONLY REAL LIVING GOD.My master I love you. I thank you

I DECIDED TO BE A KING NOT TO BE AN ANT

As am now in not reach of internet it is not possible for me to update my blog every day however this dayi could do it. On these days I have been thinking about ny life and my future life and I found an intresting thought in me and that is nothing other than that the desire to be a king.
I just saw a picture of JESUS as a king. As I first thought about kings i had the picture of very luxurious people those who are living very differently from others with all kinds of fascilities,power ,name and fame with lots of servants to fullfill thier commands.But as I went along with my thoughts and found some thing differnet from the first arrays of thoughts and that led me to a differnt level of thinking.
My thoughts was like this a king is the guardian of the people those whom are under his reign.He is the guide of the people those who are living in his country .He is the judge and he should be impartial towards every one.He should be so wise ,clever and intelligent to lead the country to prosperity .
To protect the life and wealth of his people he leads the battle in front and he is ready to offer his life for them.A king must undergone a very tough training programme for several years to achieve all the required qualities which makes him a an effective king.
The happiness of the king should be the happiness of his people,and his splendifull life resembles the splender and wealth of his country ,ultimately that is his people's splender.
King is a man ,in whom others can rely,King is a man in whom others can take refuge,king is a man in whom others can find a way in the darkness.Really a king is for others and His people always look on him for guidence and He provides what they need.
Yes I feel to be a king is ,to be a servnt of others ,a servant of mankind.As JESUS CHRIST said 'I came to this world not to be serverd but to serve others.'
I learned in the school that the ants are so hard working and keeping food for unseasonel time.Well.this is good but I found that this ants are noty doing anything other than only collecting their food.They are not enjoying a pleasent sunny day and windy rainy day.I feel they are not much wondering about the beauty of the surronding world but simply working hard always and eat and sleep then breeding.I feel their life is a boring life and monotonous.I hate that life.
I feel human life also some time like the life of ants which are working hard only to have a secure future,constructing our dream home,having a better half ,children and providing for their lives and education and more a car and to make a better future life for our children .All these may be our lives besides these we cant find any thing in our lives.We are also wasting the beauty of the life while we live only for the above said aims.We too live just like the ants.So I decided TO BE A KING IN MYB LIFE.
Lord give me a heart of a servant.JESUS my king i love you. love you u r jeril.amen