JESUS IS OUR ROCK AND THE REAL SUPER HERO

JESUS is the rock of my life.He never changes. Jesus still works silently but actively.Jesus is the God of hope.Jesus is the God of victory.Jesus is the God of happiness, joy and peace.Jesus is alive today.
I all ways have a picture of Jesus that is Jesus giving back the life to Lazarus . Here Jesus was so sad in the death of his friend Lazarus.But he waited for some time to act , he wanted to use that painfull moments to give glory to God.So he waited and act.
When Jesus reached there ,he was so late and they burried Lazarus, before his visit. So Jesus when to the tomb of Lazarus and told them to open it.When they opened the tomb ,He called him back to the life again.
Lazarus was died and became rotten,this means that for human being it is impossible to come back from death and from a rotten stage.But it is posiible to God.
In Jeremiah God says that 'I am the lord of the nations and nothing is impossible for me". Yes the same lord is here .Jesus the rock ,the king ,the mighty super hero.yah I love him.
Like Lazarus we might be died in our hope, we may think our life has gone.I cant cahnge my fate.My condition is rotten and I cant come back from this dark tomb of my failurs.wE MAY SMELL THE FOUL SMELL OF OUR DECAYED FUTURE LIFE .But you know your friend is ready there to give you back the life again.
Jesus is able to give you back your lost prosperity,he is able to give you back your lost education,he is still able to give you back your lost family life.Yes he is very mouch enough to give you back your lost financial sound set up.Jesus is able to remove your burden of det from you.
you know Lazarus was rotten.He became simple mud and soil.BUT THERE WAS OUR PHOENIX, JESUS THE NAZRENE.He gave him what he lost AND THAT WAS UNTHINKABLE to the world.You may think ,and others may say, that your life has become rotten and no chance for you to come back to the life,I say u r thouroughly mistaken o,our super hero is there with his mighty power,He will give you back what you lost.
He will remove the foul smell of your rotten future and give u back the fragrance of your nice and bright futUre.This is the the most clear and vivid reality.I am telling this from my life. Once I was LOST EVERYTHING NOW I HAVE GOT BACK WHAT I LOST.Jesu is intervening all ways at last and at the right time.
SO JUST SIMPLY GO TO HIM AND EXPERINCE HIS LIFE GIVING MIGHTY POWER.
Lord help me to be all ways under your guidence and protection.Here I am lord,speak to me.ur jeril amen,

FRIENDSHIP

Last day I was chatting with one of my friends ,her name is Maggie.m.We shared many things about life and our faith.We all know that many are using chatting room to play with people.But I didnt feel that she was playing with me. Any way she didnt share her full name with me.That made me a little confused that, was she playing with me? I felt bad in my heart for a while.But again she shared many things and I understood that she was genuine in her talk.

But this confusion made me to think again and I found that I had no wright on demanding loyalty from her because I just dont know her personnally and I didnt do any good thing for her life,then how can I expect genuinity and loyalty from her.What I did is that I just demanded loyalty but I was not worthy and I got annoyed and disturbed without having any reason.

Here I am with out any proper reason got annoyed of a simple misunderstanding with an un known person,then how much people discouraged with the miscommunication of the people we really know and love.

Exspecially with the most loved one is so pain full and heart breaking.Ok,now I think how much I gave to blow to my God.I was not loyal to him completely.I never gave him a really thank full heart and actually he is the only one reason ,now I am here.And you ,after all my blow he is so kind hearted to me,he never questioned me ,never stopped his blessing upon me and never critisized me.But I am being nothing to that friend simply got misunderstanding with her.I know how much blind I am,?How much I am demanding from others?Lord I dont know when I am going to change?please help me Jesus,Make me a good humanbeing.Please be with me oh Christ.u r jeril amen

Thank you MAGGIE 4 ur sharing. I know you didnt play with me. God really used you to make me to think. THANK YOU MY FRIEND OF PHILIPINES.In mamma mary .u r frnd .JERIL

I AM BACK TO BLOG AND TO LIFE

At last I reached back to home.The continuous 35 hours journey made me burn out.It was tiring but I enjoyed the journey.I love travelling.As I was travelling in the bus I saw a mother and she was holding her small child in hand.There was no seat in the bus for her to sit.So she gave her child to the old man one who was sitting in bus.Suddenly the child start to cry and made a big noise in the bus as the child was reluctant to move a little away from her mother.But as time passed the child became so cool and started to play with man and became so playful.Again after some time childs attention went on to her mother and started to cry.The old man tried his best to make the child happy but every attempt went to vain.Child cried and made all the noise and when she saw the face of her mother she stoped crying and jumped to her.Then she became so happy and at peace.
This gave me a look on my life.Yes I too have the same character.Whenever I do sin my mind is not ready to that and was telling me to do not do.When I say a lie my mind is objecting my plan and I continue with my plan.When I ignore this primary objection of my mind then I have no problem to say lie again.But you know after ignoring all the objections of my conscious ,for some days I can go forward and live peacefully.But then allways in my mind a cyclone takes birth that destroys all my peace and urging me to make treaty with God.The cyclone of repentance, which all ways lead me to confession.In the confession cabin I allways find my God again and again and that moment I cant express with the words.
I felt the above said child and myself are same because when first the child moved from the sight of her mother she was not so happy,and reluctant to it.But she changed her mind soon and attracted towards the new condition and she couldnt enjoy the new condition for long time.Again her mind started to search for her mother.She knew that she is from her mother and she is for her mother and all others are not for her. This reality written in her mind when she born in to this world.So she is ultimately happy and peacefull only at the presence of her mother.
I too like this child that sometimes I may went away from the presence of God,but soon my mind reminds me that only God is for me and I am for him.I can be happy only with him.So suddenly my mind looks for God.I am so happy when I found him again because the living God is very near to a repenting heart.
God my love,I thank you for helping me to find you again and again.And I ask you pardon for all my sins.Please have mercy on me my God and my love. THANK YOU LORD JESUS CHRIST. your jeril amen

JENY MY GUARDIAN ANGEL

I named my guardian angel JENY. JENY is the short form of my name jeril antony.I took first and last two letters from my name and gave him the name.I just thought that my name represnts my entire individuality and giving guard to my name means giving protection to my entire personality.So JENY my guardian angel guards me all ways.He protects me from birth to death .His name represnts my entire personality and he is for me.
From my childhood onwards i had a desire to see my guardian angel.I wished to play with him and want to be helped by him during my studies.I used to pray to JENY for his apparition.As time went I just droped the desire for his vision.
I never stopped to pray to him.Reasonly I left out for a
distant journey and I prayed agin to JENY and remembered Tobias and Angel Raphael.I really wished my JENY's presence at that time.I dreamed abt his face ,a handsome angel with golden hair, wearing very bright white dress with a nice fragarnt.
Any way I started my journey and i was thinking about how can I spot the place which is not known for me and I knew the language also different.Then again I thought about my JENNY and wanted to had his physical presnce .I dreamed that he was sitting near to me.I wanted to breath his nice fragrance but I smelt a different smell .I got the smell of pure local liquor.
When i opened my eyes I saw a man wearing dirty clothes and his eyes were red ,hair was not groomed and he was blabbering many things.The smell of the liquor was very much enoug to kill my peace on my journey.
I was struggling and then some thoughts came to me,and i asked JENNY wh y u didnt come to me and let this man to sit near to me.Any way I asked some qustion like this t o him and I didnt get any answer.
I was confused about the place where I was going.So I asked many men about the place and the correct spot ,when the bus stoped for a while,but no one can give me the proper answer.Again I thought about my guardian angel.Suddenly the man one who was sitting near to me came and said to me that he knew the place.
Again I said to JENNY dont play with me because this drunkard may lead me to a trap.Any way our bus started to move and he wsa asking so many qustions.He told me again that he know the place and he would help to reach there.I didnt say any thing.
At last we reached the last stop.I thought a while about my destiny.Suddenly that man Came and took my hand and hired a taxi for me and said to the driver the exact place.Then again he told me that he too coming with me.and I asked him where you wanted to go and he said that he didnt want to go any where.
We started again in taxi and at last we reached there.When the taxi driver asked fare he started to shout at him and said dont try to cheat others .SO the driver didnt take money as he demand first.He charged only the right fare.
That man showed me the office where I suppose to go and he went back in the same taxi.I thanked him ,then told me only a word that "this is my duty".As soon as he finished the word the car started to move.
I really freezed because i saw my guardian angel there.What I thought about him was wrong .He changed my views about the people.
Now my jeny is a drunkard .He is having a smell of liquor.
Heis wearing a dirty torn shirt.His hair is not combed well. His face is dark and not shaven.
Jenny i am sorry now I undrstand that many times u heared my prayer and came to see me but I didnt recognize you.Sorry,sorry,
But now jeny Ican see you every where in my life.As i leve now to chidambaram I know you will be with me .
thank you Jeny .
lord help me to see your face in everuy one so that I can see you whenever i see other people.thank you lord.
JENY i am leaving to chidambaram please come with me and guard me in my ways. yur jeril. amen

THE BURNING HEART

Today I went through Luk24-32 and I found the words like this that "Wasn't it like a fire burning in us when he talked to us on the road and explained the scripture to us?" I thought about on these words and i too felt that some light is shining in my thoughts also.
Yes there Jesus spoke to them and they had the burning sensation in their heart.That means when they heard the word of god ,their hearts got fired and burn. Yes I know the word of god is so powerful, so when I hear the word of god I suppose to have the same feeling,the burning sensation in my heart too.
Then I thought that what are the functions of the fire?
About the functions of fire what I undestood is that fire cleans the area .We use to fire the wastes and clean the area and make it ready for good and useful purpose.Then fire use to melt the hard metals ,and makes them useful instruments for our daily life.This same fire is used to cook the food which gives energy in our lives.Then the same fire gives light in the darkness and help us to walk in the right path which leads us in to a safe place.Again the same fire make us warm in the cold which destroys our enthusiasm to go forward in our life and to our destiny.
If i have fire in me when i hear the word of god all these functions of fire will have to take place in me.The fire of god should cleans my heart.ALL the impure feelings,thoughts,which makes a person unclean vanish from him.He will have a new heart.There we can see a transformed heart.


As fire melt the hard metals ,the fire of the word of god melts the rock like hearts, and make them his instruments for his kingdom.When we use the fire to cook food , we are actually acquiring the energy for our


life.When the word of god burns in us we too get the sufficint enrgy and strength to live the life which Jesus led in this world.
Fire gives light in the darkness .When the divine fire comes, the dark corner of our inner heart also shines and that leads us to the narrow path of the kingdom of god and helps us to walk smoothly and finally leads us to God.As the fire gives warm in the cold and gives a new enthusiam to act again and work the fire of God gives a new enthusiasm .An enthusiasm to pray more,to do good things,desire to live for God and die for him.A real enthusiasm to lead a christ oriented life,to taste the sweetness of his words and finally to offer ones life to spread his word and the kingdom of god.
Oh JESUS the living word.u have given me these thoughts,but lord I beg u to give me the fire in my heart.Help me to get burned by u r fire.LOrd help me , help me, help me,,,,,,my lord.I would like to have u r fire in me.Lord i want to get changed.Transform me.
Again if we misuse the fire that will burn and destroy everything.If we misuse god and his name I think his fire may burn us.
LORD HELP ME WALK ALL WAYS WITH YOU.Teach me to forget my self and remember only you. Thank you my dear jesus christ.I love u. amen. u r jeril

THE DAILY CRUCIFICATION

I thought about the crucification of jesus and it's cruelty.Some thoughts were like this that ,he didn't get justice from any where.Judge declared him innocent but gave punishment.He is the only one innocent punished by a judiciary when he cleared as innocent.Then again he knew what is rejection.He was rejected by evry one except his mother.Then he was beaten,crushed, mocked, nailed,crowned by thorn,pierced,and was abandoned .The one who gives life got what he least deserves.
As I was thinking I felt that the crucification of jesus is now repeating in the kitchens of most of our houses.Some of our mothers spending their life inside the house,helping others and only living for their husband and their children.Yes I can say that they do everything with love.They think those jobs are their duty.But actually most of our mothers lead their life completely for the better ment of their families.
But no one cares their inner cries.They are sacrificing their likes and interests for others sake.Like jesus denies his divinity on the earth.They are ready to wipe the tears of others in the family but when they are in tears no one may not be near to them bcz all may be busy with theirs work.They too experience the same rejction which jesus experienced.
They may laugh with evrey one .Mothers read the sorrow of the mind of others.But mostly they are pierced by others when they get a bad comment about the food which they prepared.Like jesus pierced by soldiers.They too crowned by thorn when husbands scolds them from misunderstsnding.They too nailed to the cross when their children give them harsh reply for their qustions.
When husband harasses her she feels she is abandoned by husband,and jesus also felt that he is abandoned by every one ,even his father too.
When her children donot obey them they fell that they are mocked by every one.jesus also mocked by evry one. Yes most of our mothers are carrying jesus cross.
Now we are crucifying our life giving mothers just like we crucified jesus.So I can say that in most of the houses they are celebrating holy mass.Mothers are offering their life in the alter of the house to have life for their dear and near ones.
What can i say more. Oh Mary my mother teach me to love my mother.Teach me to respect my mother.Help me to wipe their faces when they carry their corss to calvary of family life .amen u r jeril

my call to be a broom

Today i thought about my life.I asked what is my life?For what I got this life? I didnt get answer.Then I went for cleaning my room and took the broom in my hand.Yes I got the answer that I called to be a broom.
A broom is using to clean the place.We use broom to remove dirty things which we dont touch with our hands.We use broom to clean the toilet,work area ,drainage and many more.this is the function.
The nature of the broom is that no one keep a broom in an important place.We keep broom in a place where others eyes never reach.After cleaning we throw the broom to the dark corner of the house.
To day My lord has told me that he has called me to become his broom.He told me to clean my self first,then try to clean others by touching there hearts.Cleaning the pus of their inner wounds with my hands ,removing the rotten growth of their mental agony with my own presence to them,and helping others in all possible ways.
Again he reminds me the place where i have to be placed.As a broom i should be kept in the dark corner of every ones mind.I should be considerd as an inauspicious thing by every one.
Again he told me that a broom cannot clean the place itself.Some should hold the broom in his hand to clean.The one who holds the broom has the complete control over the cleaning purpose.This tells obviously that a broom has no role in its job.So a broom cannot take proud in its duty.
I too be like this broom.If God hold me in his hand and use me as a broom ,then i can say that I am a broom of GOd.And I cant be proud of my life.Yes everything is u r gift oh lord.
Lord I know that i am at u r mercy.God my father take away my self love from me.AND give me a mind of the broom.My master jesus, teach me humility .Make me humble and simple .Mother mary be with me.Holy spirit make me u r broom. u r jeril amen.

thoughts while my journey

last few days i have been travelling to my proposed college.from my home to there thats a big journey.around 12 hrs I was on the road.any way i like travel a lot.I am so crazy about travel.More than this, travelling gave me ample time to be with god.
when ever i travel i pray rosary and apeak to god .this time iwas contemplating about the birth of jesus in the manger.the very special thought which came to my mind is that how much mother mary accept her real life situation.She knew that she is the mother of god.But she never demand any thing.She never critisize her husband in his inability to find a place for to deliver the son of god.
Here she accepts what god kepts for her.But in my case i dont have such quality.I am a person who demands from god.Here she relys on the providence of god.
I do pray to god and have good relationship with god.But i know i dont change.I am also looking for goodone in everything.Even in the case of my admission in the college i looked for the standard and great college.But God shown me one that was not in my thoughts.I asked him why this .that was his plan .then i came to know his plan was great.
i do pray to god i say i have good relationship with god then i qustioned him .what a faith i have in god. How much i rely on god.this shows how much poor i am in my obedience to god.and i simply ask god qustion ,why?i pray to god,i go to church,means i am good. what a proud i am.all my prayer leads me to proudness. i prayed for my sake thats what happend in my life.i didnot think that god is worthy for all adoration and for his sake i have to be with him and glorify him.But i pray to glorify my self,to get seat in the paradise not for the glory of god.sorry my lord. i know i am nothing ,because of yourgrace now i am hereLord change my heart oh lord,change me now
Even in the case of future life my interest was in foreign visa. not in indian job.LOrd i ask u change me .and teach me to content with what i have.
I may mary a girl who is working in abroad but dont mary one who does the same job in india.yes that much only i love the god ,i love the other one. because i am relying on visa and money .i am not rely on my god completely.

Any way u have given me the in sigt that is changing my life.mother mary teach me to live as you lived and as rely on god.teach me to accept others failures and inabilities with an understanding heart.
be with me all ways my god .thank yopu lord.
your jeril.amen

sweet marriage

Today someone asked me about my marriage.I know that is not possible right now. I know i have to wait at least 2 yrs. At this age am going to join in acollege again.Thats me.Any way I could think on marriage.
For me marriage is a new step.Like two different sterams originated from differnt mountains and flow through differnt lands at last join together and reaching in the ocean.WOW I love that sean.
One day I too join with my special one and we flow together.and reach together the goals that we dream together. I think this may be the plan of god.
I wanna to get a good girl in all the sense.But if Iwant to have a good girl first is hould be good.I want to have a virgin as my wife so i should be virgin first.If i go for sex whereevr i can and wish to have a virgin as wife ,it is utter cheating.
I would like to have a girl who doesnt have a boy friend and any affair.If i keep a girl friend and demand for that m a fool.Because every action has a reaction.
Lord JESUS says what u believe will be done for you. I believe that if am keeping my chastity .god wil give me a virgin.If u done any thing against any one u will get it back in some way.
If i make any comment on any girl ,one day my sister,my mother,my wife or daughter wiil get it back from others.So my policy is too loyal to our god and to my future wife wherever she may be.I know i can cheat her but i cannot sleep. and i cannot hide from the eyes of my God.
I know people may laugh at me abt my thoughts but i dont care because i know god is alive and he is with me.I dont know who will come in to my life but i know that m only for you and pls wait for the gods time.
lord my god pls give me the strength to walk in your way.Jesus my master help me to be loyal to you and my future one.Mother mary keep me under your guidence.HOLY spirit be with me and help me to lead a holy life.
JERIL ANTONY

smile a while

i love to smile.i love to watch smile.when an infant smiles i m getting so tenderd.
When a police officer smiles at me i feel relieved.when darling smiles sweet heart feels the victory of alexander the great.When God smile at a sinner he acquires eternal life.
lord i think smille is the language of angels. lord teach me that language.i do not want to go to the moon.i do not want to cross the far oceans.i donot want climb over the peak of the mountains.But lord i would like to speak to the hearts through smile.
God teach me to smile. Teach me to touch the hearts.Oh Lord change my heart so that i may able to smile at others and spread your love and warm blessings to them. lord here i am and help mme

who am i ?

I am nothing . I got life with out my knowledge.i dont choose my parents and nationality.
Totally i am blank, I dont know more about my self than i know.Even I dont know what I may do at 9.30 pm ,june 13 of 2009.I dont know that what I speak by this time tomorrow.
ya I got life from some one.I got everything from him.HE is" I AM WHO IAM".
He is the Lord of all natiOns and king of kings.He is the god of jeril antony.
Who am I? I am God's own pet. He is my rock and my life. I am from him and for him.He is my every thing.I love him and I"ll die for him.