MAKE ME A PRODIGAL

I have been thinking on the life of the prodigal son but my eyes hooked on the character of the elder son the loving father.Yes the prodigal one came back to father and united with him but in contrast the elder one was really went away from him.This situation cause a twist in my thought.
The angry elder spent his entire life with the father and had been doing all the assigned job .Besides that he enjoyd the splendour of his broad minded father.But when his father accepted his younger brother who spiled all his pssessions,he could not agree with his father.This event vividly explains about his real nature rather than mere disagreement with father.Eventhough he was with his father he never understood the mind of his father and he never realized who his father was.
Yes I too like this elder son many of a times I did not understand my God.Yes I was with God and I really wanted to work for God but the reality is that I never realise who is God.I passed judgement on others and was got angry with God but never understood the tender feelings of God.
Lord PLEASE GIVE ME A HEART OF THE PRODIGAL SON AND MAKE ME A PRODIGAL SON ,Lord why i say is that the prodigal son realized what is his father .So my God please HELP ME TO UNDERSTAND YOU .AMEN U R JERIL