AN INNER CRY

Jesus you are a wonderful healer.Lord last day I was with my aunt in the hospital and she was bitten by a poisonous snake.The poison spread in the blood ,that altered her tottal appearence.The active became the faint,the talkative became the silent,the fair became the bluish and besides that the alive can become the dead .Such kind of external elements like snake venom made transformed her to an another person.To bring her back to the previous or normal stage she has hospitalised.She has given antivenom and brought her back to the normal stage.
Jesus I know when I was bitten by the sin I really transformed to an another man. The tranquilant became restless,the quite one became so harsh,the understanding mind became so adament,the loyal mind became so deceitful mind,the loving heart became the hatred one.Lord I know the pain of flying away from you.When ever I was wrong I had been a deep wound in my inner heart,and the puss of unloyalty towards you was flowing from that wound, besides that the malodur of my sins did not allow my self to smell the fragrance of your holiness.Lord I was in the bondage of my emotions ,I was not rational in thinking more over that I was filled with bitter feelings and my sexuality blew off the light of my life.
Jesus you were very much kind to me and you were so compassionate towards me.Lord you washed me with your precious blood and heal the wound of my inner heart.You touched me with your pierced hands and wiped away the puss of my unloyalty with your tender fingers.Again you poured on me the sweet smelling holy spirit in order to make me free from the malodour of my sins.Jesus I know I canot follow you but only YOUR GRACE makes me to follow you,Even though now I am with you ,Lord I dont know whether tomorrow I will be with you or not.Jesus if you withdraw your hands from me ,I know the moment I will fall in the trap of the sin.Lord I am so helpless,so weak and so unloyal.But Lord I know one thing that even if I fall you never abandon me and I can come back you again because you are not my self ,because you are not man but you are the living God.Thank you lor for helping me .thank you lord for supporting me. LORD I LOVE YOU. U R JERIL .AMEN